Minding my impulse
Riding a bicycle didn’t really interest me, I had my bunch of cousins who enjoyed cycling during the summer holidays. I always stayed back at home, having had the inner fear I might fall down and hurt myself brutally.
Falling while you learn to cycle is normalcy, but this stopped me from learning.
Balancing the body weight while you ride a two wheeler vehicle is predominantly essential — looking far into that aspect, I learned how to cycle in solitude without having a single scratch on me. And that was it, “I know how to cycle,” and this will surely help me to own a vehicle once I turn 18! Not really exploring to ride around in streets 100m away from home.
This is a story decades back when I was schooling.
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But now, after coming to a city filled with all category of humans enjoying cycling, I felt happy to see them cycle, but I was quite reluctant to explore the riding. My inner child trauma was awake, making me anxious.
Fooling around to lie that it’s not fun, “let’s walk, so we can talk more, see the nature in detail,” I kept saying this to my husband everytime he said let’s buy cycles. I was being very loyal to inner belief of danger in riding a cycle, icing to the cake the fear of riding in a place away from home.
And couldn’t stop him any more — my husband, he bought a new cycle, I was excited and anxious at the same time whenever he offered me to ride, I enjoyed riding it while we went into the woods for a jog.
I slowly got comfortable with the cycle, henceforth it was my thing then on! (I grab on the best things which we own, it is just the comfort I have between us 😜), and he was happy to buy another new bicycle so we both could enjoy the ride.
And now from past one month, I have been religiously riding the bicycle, relishing it thoroughly—infact more than walking. Riding in the woods is so much bliss to my heart, listening to the rustling sound of leaves, chirping birds, hopping rabbit and the earthy scent after a good rainfall in dry land all of these gives me so much positive uplift in mood — making me feel grateful for the nature and the Supreme creator who has bestowed us with so much love.
Oh God, I would’ve missed this beautiful opportunity of riding in one of the best gifted lands in the world.
Belittling certain actions or activities is certainly not necessary. Giving more thoughts on past experiences, opinions will only make it worse. Next time my conscious mind wants to learn something new, I shall not look back on what my impulses wishes to say to best avoid it.
I had set my own beliefs, opinions on what cycling meant, and I took 25 years to really disapprove and embrace it so much, and evidently witnessing more boon — it is not only giving me the joy of contentment in my life every day, but also helping me to harness the power of my mind and body.
Ofcourse, I have my patterns of fears which comes in with increase in heartbeat, sweat palms, triggering thoughts to stop the bike when I see big trucks closing by to me, or when I see a dog staring at me— putting me in a freezing mode, but battling against my inner fear, overcoming this normative stress has helped me to build more confidence.
After having learnt to control the wheel of my fear, I am now able to ride without traumatised feeling of “a passing-by dog bark at me,” making my mind understand that, it is a small, kind, adorable creature. And,now guess what! “My mind has registered it to be the fact and have been thinking to own a puppy soon.” Yes I am serious! 😄
Keeping my body in movement is, what I do most of the time— it was mostly walking, doing daily errands, or some home workouts which I preferred. Now added on my favourite is cycling, I now choose cycling over any kind of physical activity— it gives me the best electrochemical reaction to my body and brain.
Physically, I have built more endurance. Gasping for more air and tired was all I felt in the beginning, now I happily enjoy riding 10kms everyday.
And yes, it saves me sometime on finishing up my cardio.
Lately, have been checking on my quads every day to see if I have got slender muscles. 😜
I know, I know, it takes months to years to shape them, but being positive to gain a little percent, perhaps by the end of this year.
